It sound desperate when I decided to write this title. I have a lot of
friends, yes I have them "I think you will read this, dear my friends in
everywhere in the world". I'm not desperate though, because I'm still
doing something to spend my time with myself! Listening music, playing
game "sometime make addicted", read a book "just if I want" look like I
don't like to read ahahha, but sometime reading also make me addicted,
write something, drawing, and still many things to do even no plan. I
count cleaning my room too! I feel so messy as girl who have a room
alone. I don't like to share my room. If I share it, I will think twice
to make it messy again hahaha. Cool reason huh!
That will so
enjoyable when outside sunny. I can open my door and open curtain of the
window to let all sunshine come into my room. I turn on the music,
singing "with my horrible voice, don't u ever wonder of my voice? Haha,
everybody can sing!" and sometime a bit dance. Alone is not even worse! I
enjoy it at the moment. At the moment, noticed!
I'm forget to include chat with friends on phone with some social networking media.
I
go somewhere alone as well. I say that I go with my lovely motorbike,
I'm not alone. I just go around like count km on speedometer. Counting
road, building, people, beach. But I'm still bad be guide for other. I
just can be good guide for myself. I will never lose my way even I will
rid long way. Sometime I drop to someplace to look forward something to
do without plan on the book. Sometime only take some photo, I will take
many photos even with phone camera for right now. I just cannot imagine
if I have my dream camera soon. I will so happy enjoy my day alone, if I
don't need someone being my model on the photo shoot. Sound I gonna be a
professional photographer. Hahaha!
What I like is to go around at the night till late night. I was enjoying
my eyes on the low light, counting the bulb. That is opposite with I do
at my room in the afternoon with full of sunshine. That is like black
and white in live, I like to enjoy both with different feeling and
different meaning.
If I read what I do with my
day with no plan alone. That still hope on my life, because I'm still
enjoy it till now! I agree with Ariel Leve on her book "It Could Be
Worse, You Could Be Me" no plan not mean nothing to do. So like me I can
suddenly have something to do with myself alone.
Blog ini...cuma buat iseng-iseng aja sih. Sapa tahu bisa berguna, bisa buat nyalurin ide-ide seru gitu. Just for fun!
Friday, March 22, 2013
Thursday, March 14, 2013
ENVY
What do you think about this word? ENVY
On my way to work place I just found this word on the road. Do you think that is true? I found it on the road! Like maple leaf scattered on the road!
I have a lot of perception that maybe you have on your mind as well. Just to figure out what I can say with envy. What I can think with envy. What I can do with envy. And of course what should I do with envy.
I realize that I often have this word in my life. Envy with other life? of course this is happen!
Envy is only a word but if it become jealous that will ruin your mind. But for me, envy is not only the word. it still rob my brain like zombie "though I know zombie".
I want a lot of things in life, for example : I want to travel around the world "not only me want this", but that cost money! And the fact is I'm not rich enough now to make it true right now. What relate with envy here, when I see other can have that all! of course make me envy.
That is only one example, but I have a lot of it. So, the simple thing make me envy too. Is that too dramatic? of course no! I try to be honest with my life. With all fact in front of my point of view.
Only me can help myself with this problem. I'm the doctor for myself. I'm sick because of envy, and only me know the right cure of it. What I want to say here, you should know who really you are! If you know that, you can play with yourself.
On my way to work place I just found this word on the road. Do you think that is true? I found it on the road! Like maple leaf scattered on the road!
I have a lot of perception that maybe you have on your mind as well. Just to figure out what I can say with envy. What I can think with envy. What I can do with envy. And of course what should I do with envy.
I realize that I often have this word in my life. Envy with other life? of course this is happen!
Envy is only a word but if it become jealous that will ruin your mind. But for me, envy is not only the word. it still rob my brain like zombie "though I know zombie".
I want a lot of things in life, for example : I want to travel around the world "not only me want this", but that cost money! And the fact is I'm not rich enough now to make it true right now. What relate with envy here, when I see other can have that all! of course make me envy.
That is only one example, but I have a lot of it. So, the simple thing make me envy too. Is that too dramatic? of course no! I try to be honest with my life. With all fact in front of my point of view.
Only me can help myself with this problem. I'm the doctor for myself. I'm sick because of envy, and only me know the right cure of it. What I want to say here, you should know who really you are! If you know that, you can play with yourself.
Friday, March 8, 2013
Why You Back To Write? – Part 2
I’m here again to write, I prove myself I’m back to write
again. But this is still new spirit, so no wonder for me. If the spirit become
less and if I cannot bring back my full spirit to write. It will same, I will
go away from here for a while. And I don’t know when I will back here to write.
For me, I’m here just pretend like writers or journalist.
So, I pretend to be cool. To prove myself “So do you think you can write?” Yes
I do!.
What I write here just bla bla bla which pass over my mind.
So I’m pretty smart to write all topics, because I knew myself! I can write
with my opinion. So I have my own style and no one needs to come and do
editing. Maybe I need editing if I publish this into a book, not maybe but yes
I need it. As you know what we need for printing. But now you can see what I do
here for free.
I have a lots document of my writing. Some of them till the
end, and some other still hanging or we can say “to be continue”. And what I
write is depends on my mood and also the situation around. And I think many
people have the same like me. Not many but only some of them.
This is same if we want to understand what is that the
meaning inside of a poems. We need to see the background of the poet, the time
when the poem made, some point of view and many things other. So you will
understand more clearly.
Thursday, March 7, 2013
Why You Back To Write? – Part 1
It been long time not here, sometime make me miss to put my
fingers on the keyboard. Write something which running so fast on my mind.
Please never put black space on my mind “my wish”, even will come pretty short
each one day.
Today I’m on the club near the beach at my work place with
some crazy people who I think still new friends I keep in touch nowadays. Just
make believe (I really like to write this “make believe” words) that you will have
new story in your life anytime you come to new neighborhood. My old life still
around when I’m there. The old friends
still there and they will never be ex friends even far away, just my story
longer than before and still without ending.
I’m back here to write about what on my mind after I read my
life till the time I write the words. If I’m the journalist or writer, I’m sure
I will often write here. But because I am not! So I’m seldom here or maybe rare
is the perfect word to describe me here.
But because I like to write too, so I’m back.
Every time I’m back here, I’m sure I will here pretty often to write. But just
see what will happen next! Will same
like before or I make progress with my word here like promise to myself.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)